1. 5
    Aug

    RANT

    actually everything have been alright lately!

    work still OK!

    In 1 weeks time my probation period will be over and i m soon to be a CONFIRM EMPLOYEE of the company! Now that I’ve knew everybody and i m attach to them, i felt slightly reluctant when it comes to let everything go. However, i m willing to let go of everything for the sake of my HAPPINESS, FAMILY and my TIME! Last but not least, a better opportunity.

    on another note, i probably resuming my class 3 soon. I wanna license so i can drive my dad car or someones car to work!

  2. 25
    May

    Learned mounting today for the smear. It looks easy but nothing close to it! I did 4 slides and i prefer staining microbes on the glass slide rather than smear! I m fine with work, its just that i m having this strong repelling feeling. I guess the workload per day is a heavy burden to me but i know its part of the work. Politics is inevitable and i have been hearing stuff here and there. I just nod and smile. FOR GODNESS SAKE! DON’T TELL ME ALL THIS KIND OF THING IN THE FIRST WEEK, IT REALLY SPOILS MY VIEW TOWARDS THOSE PEOPLE. Let me be my own judge. I m just ranting here and there but i hope i can work in one shift cause work start at 1pm and ends at 9pm! I hope to work like any other office hour! = ( NO PAIN NO GAIN! HERE’S A WORD OF ENCOURAGEMENT FOR ME! “Instead of giving myself reasons why I can’t, I give myself reasons why I can.” CMON KASMINAH!!! YOU CAN DO IT~ = )

  3. 22
    May

    i ‘ve been wanting a particular book and i swear its gonna be great since its a letter to 16 year old self. Anyway, i want to use tumblr to write it to me. Here it goes.

    Dear me,

    At your age, you will fall for this guy who is freaking nerdy but its worth falling for him because he is the one who made you are today! He will crush your hope and dreams but as a revenge, you started to study well to prove to him that he will regret it one day. It was a good revenge indirectly because you benefit from it. You will hear from a friend that he wanted to be a doctor to cure cancer because his aunt passed on due to cancer. you will be taking science course and loving it all because of him. I still wonder whether i shall thank him?! Well, i just hope that you should study well for O’levels, i guess there are lots of distraction.

  4. 22
    May

    WELCOME TO A NEW WORLD

    schooling transiting to working life is a whole new thing to me and still getting use to it.

    No leave, no MC cause i m under probation period for 3 months. It feels sucky but whatever it is i am grateful that i have a job.

    The workload sometimes is manageable but sometimes it could be pain in the ass! Every pertinent details is needed and a small mistake could lead to another BIG mistake!

    I just need someone to absrob all this negative feeling from me and give me motivation. YEAH i need the motivation!!!

    GOD, PLEASE!! make this a smooth journey to me and guide me through. = (

  5. 4
    May

    can someone knock my head because it seems that death is occupying my mind. Not that i m experiencing problems and want to commit suicide. After a nice meal, me and bestie sat down. I asked her, are you afraid of death? i tend to ask some random question in my mind! she said “NO. i m only afraid that one day my father and mother have to go.” BINGO! that is exactly what i m afraid of. She asked me what actually happened when my late grandfather passed away. Though i was alone with my siblings at home and don’t even know whether my grandfather have really pass away, I still can’t figure out what happen. I think people thought that i have emotional struggles since i saw my own grandfather passed away without anyone at home,not even my parents! To think of it, i still have no idea, i don’t feel sad at that particular moment. Maybe i can still feel his presence??! i remembered calling my sister and crying, “Atuk dah takde” when i m not sad but my mouth force me to do so. IRONY huh?? Everyone have to go through this phase no matter whoever you are in this world. today conversation with her, kinda made me wanna cry.

  6. 2
    May

    My existent

    The other day I was with Ain while waiting for fiza.

    Ain, just had finish her prayers and we talk non-stop about life.

    She have always been a strong girl and after her dad passed away, she is stronger.

    She told me about her dad and the stories of someone encounters.

    When i went back home, it stuck in my mind and i told my mum all the stories that Ain told me.

    This is why i love to get to know people. Their life lesson taught me a lot of things and their opinions may differ but i still love listening.

    In life and since i was a kid, my mum told me that God had put a date to everyone’s death and even birth. I always wonder about it.

    Sometimes it scares me out if god takes away someone dearest to me. I know it will happen someday and i have to face it.

    sigh~

    I m always curious whats in store for my life but i m afraid it would be better if i don’t know about it.

    Even the slightest thing is bothering me!

  7. 28
    Apr

    Mr. Noodle

    I felt seriously clumsy today!

    My ez-link dropped under the bus after i tapped it to alight from the bus.

    I accidentally graze my elbow in between the escalator thing, you know the sharp triangular prism at mrt station. ALL thanks to the aunty with the big plastic bag!

    on another note, did i just saw the guy whom i used to like when i was in primary school or was it the younger brother? They seriously look similar and i just can’t stop looking at him at the other end! LOL

    whatever luck i m down with today, i m grateful!

  8. 28
    Apr

    petty…II

    I don’t get it when you have a gf, you want me to treat you as close like i used too. Cmon, i know my limits. Though i know you for a long time, i don’t think i m close to you. I m not trying to be mean but sometimes i can feel that i don’t share the same sentiments as you, though i know everything bout you.
    Sometimes its not about the time….



    do i have any reason to let him be closer to my heart?
    i m confused. what does he want me to do??


    i’ve never remember a friend(you) trying to make me laugh while i m feeling down.


    I didn’t remember you asking me how i am when i haven’t talk to u for months(didn’t even know i went to the hospital)

    telling me u r close to me and we are close friends?? IRONY!

    what have u did for the name of friend??

  9. 25
    Apr

    "What you see depends on what you’re looking for."

    - anonymous
  10. 25
    Apr

    difference between listening and hearing?

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